Clean vs. Tequila

January 4, 2018

Miles run: 0
2018 total: 12.7/2018
Days without spending money: 1/365 <— WOW

Fourteen days ago I started a 21 day cleanse – called the Clean Program. This is the third time I’ve done this program; the first time I lost over 25lbs – not in 21 days. The 21 days kickstarted the weight loss, and it took a few more weeks to get down to my goal weight. A year later I did it again, to reset my weight. A couple of weeks ago I felt like first, I wanted to reset my weight after months and months of marathon training, and second, I wanted to enter 2018 nice and clean and detoxed.

ButWhyI won’t lie; I felt like total horseshit during the first 36 hours; my dependence on caffeine has become intense, and the headache from caffeine withdrawal was worse than any hunger pain I imagined I would experience. After that, the cleanse became really, well, cleansing. My energy is low, but my focus is so sharp! I know, it seems contradictory, but its true. I love having my brain working so well; but I hate slogging through my day, my running, feeling as though I’m going to topple over.

I won’t lie; I “cheated” a couple of times. On New Years’ Eve I allowed “a” sip of tequila. I love tequila; did you know? Well I do. And I did on NYE. One other time too; I can give up dairy, cheese, wheat, gluten, white rice, nightshades (no tomatoes, no potatoes), processed foods, you name it. But tequila? That one; well, that one hurts.

Have you ever cleansed? Finished Whole 30? Sugar Detoxed? How did it make you feel?


That cute little pug photo is by Matthew Henry on Unsplash

Next Goal: Equanimity for 2018 (miles)

January 1, 2018

Miles run: 4
2018 total: 4/2018
Days without spending money: 0/365

New Year’s Day goals. Most people at least contemplate the idea for a moment. Some flat-out reject the concept, while on the other end of the spectrum, some place all of their bets on them.

Eat clean. Play. Plunder.

I think I’ve spent more time over the last week thinking about the crazy, sometimes unpleasant, sometimes amazing, ride that was 2017. I’m grateful to be able to look back and know that I’m leaving the year better off than I started. That’s not to say the year was perfect; far from it. But I’m in a better place.

Looking forward, and onward, to 2018. I’m trying to keep my goals simple, yet extremely relevant.

Mind: In a word: equanimity.  One of the “four immeasurables,” of Buddhist virtues. I want to improve all of those qualities (love, compassion, joy, and equanimity), but right now, cultivating the ability to, essentially, be chill in the face of anything life throws at me, needs the most work.

Body: Of course, I have running goals. For the first time in years I don’t have a big race on my calendar. Yet. But I am going to go for a crazy mileage goal: 2018 miles in 2018. That’s 2018 “running” miles. Not tracking every step I take on my Garmin. Just the running ones.

Tidy for 2018. For now.

Finance: I’m not joining any of the “official” 2018 mile groups. What does this have to do with money? Because another goal of mine (not running related, but still) is to only spend money on “needs.” I don’t need to pay anyone to track my miles. My Garmin will do.

I have other things I’m working on but they aren’t really tied to the new year. The inward focus has been on getting enough sleep, eating clean, “me time,” and moving. The outward focus has been on being present with my husband and sons, and finding ways to make a contribution to the world.

What is your current focus?

June 13, 2016: About that fast day

It’s funny how knowing you cannot have something or do something makes you want that something so much more. So much more it hurts…

Just wanted to post a quick thought about yesterday, which was my first day on the Every-Other-Day Diet. (The book is a very easy read, by the way, and describes a number of studies whose results seem back up what the author is proposing.)

Yesterday was a fast day. 500 calories. No problem, right?

Yah. I was damned sad, the second I took my last bite of lunch, which I ate later in the afternoon, just to mitigate my suffering. I should have been fine. It was a satisfying and healthy, clean lunch.

But all I could think about was the fact that I couldn’t eat anymore yesterday. I thought about that from the last bite of lunch, until the moment I fell asleep, probably 7 hours later.

BUT – I will say that the other thought that was bouncing around my hungry brain, which was that as soon as I woke up today I could eat whatever the hell I wanted to eat, actually did help me suffer through it. That, and many, many, many ounces of water.

“I can eat tomorrow. I can eat tomorrow. I can eat tomorrow. I can eat tomorrow.”

So far today I haven’t had the urge to binge at all. I may have indulged in a cookie or two, but honestly, my mind isn’t set on eating all the food, or eating any crap. I’ve just been eating my normal foods. Mostly clean. Mostly homemade.

I did weigh myself, and was nearly 3lbs lighter than after my long run last Saturday (I forgot to weigh myself Sunday, the first day of the diet). I’m sure I’ll be up tomorrow but I guess that’s just part of the experience.

So we will see. We will see…

June 12, 2016: I need to drop this bowling ball

And by bowling ball, I mean this excess 10lbs I’m carrying around.

Why? Because I’ve gained a solid 5lbs from my last, never-ending marathon training cycle. And I wanted to be 5lbs lighter than that to begin with. So…while I’m still in this wonderful fog of “will I, won’t I” go for another fast marathon finish, why not experiment with my caloric intake.

Last week I did a quick Clean Program based cleanse, just to help me adjust my appetite down. I think it helped but the truth is, since I did my first Clean cleanse a few years ago, I’ve adhered (about 80/20) to a clean diet, so I don’t experience the dramatic changes in weight and overall well being from the cleanse that I did the first time. I guess that’s good.

I lost about 26lbs super fast when I first did the cleanse. No, not all the weight was lost during the 21-day cleanse, but I kept up the clean eating habits from the cleanse and eventually got down to 130lbs, a weight that, while I’m not super skinny at, I’m still super happy at.

And the weight stayed off for a few years (I think rapid weight loss just works better for me, honestly; everyone is different). But with all the marathon training during the last 2 years, the weight has crept on. I want to race at 125lbs. Instead I’ve been racing (and staying) at closer to 135lbs. And it isn’t muscle.

I’m burying the lead here. I’m jumping into the “Every Other Day” diet. I’ll give it a try for the next 3 weeks and see how it feels. Today is a “fast” day (500 calories – hardly a fast but I’ll be hungry nevertheless). On the non-fast days, I play to adhere to my typical 80/20 clean eating habits. As I ease back into some intensity with the training, it will be interesting to see how this impacts my workouts. I’ll be following the Run Less Run Faster plan – so only 3 high-intensity runs per week, and I’ll match those up with the diet in what seems like a logical way: eating the day before a workout; fasting the day of my (typically early morning) workout.

I did waste the first 100 calories on lactose-free creamer for my coffee. Well, is waste the right word? I’m having some Clean Eating Skillet Spaghetti (I use Tinkyada Brown Rice Spaghetti noodles instead of whole wheat, and I use beef instead of turkey) for my one meal (a late lunch). I’ve already run and completed my strength training today. So we will see what the day brings.